Raising kids is the most difficult task I have come across in my life.I always thought that all you need to do wash their little butts ,feed them and make them sleep and of course play with them occasionally.But as my elder is about to reach her puberty her questions and concerns are also maturing and most of the times I find myself like a soldier in the line of fire.I run away from those sensibly formed questions about my life and relationships and her keen observation sometimes irritates me.I try to convince myself that she is just a kid and these are just senseless and baseless questions but in my heart I know that I am a coward and it's me who is running away from harsh realities of life instead of answering her concerns.Parenting becomes very difficult when children start mirroring our fears.Their inquisitive nature is actually us questioning ourselves ,the things we keep our children away from so that we don't have to recall and answer.
I have often heard parents of teens telling how the kid is changing and now unpleasant mostly it is but as I am about to enter that stage soon I realize it's not the kids,it's us,the parents who are entering a new phase where we want to control our demons so that our child doesn't get a glimpse of it.In trying to prove myself a superhero to my kid I feel like I am losing it somewhere within me.The questions I fear to be asked will be asked by my kids and I am very reluctant to answer because I can not allow myself to show my darker side to my kid.
I somehow disagree with the fact that parents should stay collected in front of kids.I feel we should show them our darker sides also so that children take us as humans not as Gods who do not make mistakes.The perfection we show them isn't always required.I think breaking down in front of your child will make the bond more stronger ,but yes we should always see when the child is ready as the maturity level is different for every child.
